im just afraid i'll lose you for good.

im sorry for being paranoid.
im sorry for being something you dont want me to be.
im sorry for irritating you at times.
im sorry.
cause deep down i know, you're the one i treasure most.

cause i really love you, deep down.

I am feeling so vexed up. I hope I would get run over by a car and just die. I had enough. I love school because I love the company of my friends. Miss foo asked why we place friends infront of family. I asked myself why too. I tried to be nice. They don't understand me. I hate it. They say what they want without thinking. When anything goes wrong, it is my fault. Everything is my fault. Why? I'm gonna fuxking get my ass out from this house when I'm 21. The laptop WAS mine. My aunt confiscated it cause the other time, I came home late. Fuxk you. This is my life you fuxking cheebye. I lead my own life. I'm sick an tired of your nonsense. I swear I will kick you back if you dare lay a finger on me. Besides this, homeworks are piling up despite completing it everyday. I'm going berserk. I want to fuxking quit school but I need education. I'm depressed. I'm very depressed. Skirt check, socks check. It really turns me off. I am so tired. I am very pissy now. It has been a long tinme since I used vulgarities on my blog. Can you feel me? And you, time and time again I try, hoping you would change but no, you didn't. I know I did it on my own accord. I wanted to prove everybody wrong. You are still the same. You never try. All you do is to entertain me sometimes. I appreciate it but hey, i've got feelings too. I'm not a fxcking toy. I'm tired. Now, I yearn for your replies no more. I will fuxk off from your life. Please, don't give people false hope. You are sucha ______.

FML.

You're my sweetie pie.

i thought i could live in your arms.

CUPCAKES CUPCAKES CUPCAKES.

Chocolate cuppycakes.

Vanilla cuppycakes.

Chocolate cupackes : 1.40$

Vanilla cupcakes: 1.20$

3 for 4$ :)

Great deal rightzzzz.

cuppycakes for sale @ FLB flea tomorrow.

Pls come down and support okayz. :>

Me luv you all. :)

Finally its friday, and im treasuring every moment i have.

Syaffy's over at my crib and weiling's at idk where.

1 hour ago, she called at say she's coming over in a moment. Lol.

I am so sleepyzz.

But i still have to bake cookies.

Jamie Oliver's recipe.

Its gonna be damn dope.

Please come down tomorrow. :)

they'll get together eventually,

what about me and you?

You're a chance taker, heartbreaker.

Am suppose to be bathing naoz.
Tuition @ 7pm. Physics today.
I am tired. I am tired. I am tired.
Gonna cheong to weiling's house to wrap parcels.

Syaffy's coming over to my house to bake on Friday so we can sell it and eat it at the flea on Saturday.
Please come down and support okay. Jamie oliver's recipe! (Y) swear it'll be nice.
Now back to my shaaaa laaaa laaaaa - shower. :)

and ps, I don't like BO. I just think he's hawt. :)
and if you know me, you'll know I reply messages or type with much Hahahahaha/lol and many smiley faces.
Stop being so paranoid lah pepooooo!

It's been three days.

I am so tired :( FML. Wished I had already graduated. I don't feel like taking o's. I feel like quitting school. I miss xr. Promise me you'll try okay

poor girl going to prepare for school now.

You smile, I smile

I woke up at 1 plus today :) I did the great escape and it was successful. My cabfare was only 4.20$ in total because Johnny cycled me to Guilan's crib yesterday with Leon, the birthday boy. The ride was so long and my ass was hurting. :( we played blackjack, Indian poker, and sang Taylor swift's song. Man, my future boyfried must be able to play the guitar! Hahahaha. They claimed that I was drunk. Upload the pictures when guilan upload it. Rot on the bed at 6.20am. Fellowship with cellgroup was awesome too. :) I low my cell group members. <3

and happy birthday Leon! :)

and I love jl flower for today because he is accompanying me to support look behind apart from Adelaide!
Mami, I haven't touch my homework. FML.
Whatever :) because I get to see xr later. :)

gotta comfort my bf naoz, she's love sick.
Heeeee. Love you bf.

Heartbreaker.

your lips, my biggest weakness.

Just be here now.




I know i am very unglam, but this is me. :)

My mom demands that i change my chinese name and my surname.
But i refused.
I mean like, what's the point?
Im not some supersticious auntie that thinks my life will change if i change my name.
Its just..... Lame.
Whatever.

My march holidays are ending. :(
I have been going out like everyday.
Treasuring every moment manz.
I havent done any homework, excuse me.

Pictures:

Boot camp. ==

Oh and my flexible elmo. (L)

Here's the cotton candy i was talking about.

im going back, for sure.
:D

Imma go cgm later and cook delicious pasta.
bowl with ammy baby and co.
Tomorrow church-ing.
Sunday, imma support LB.
then i'll get to see _______. :)

CANT WAIT.

okay, iloveyou. byebye.

NAHBILAH HURRY UP LEH.

Ya shut up.

I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE IS WEILING.
NABILAH IS TAKING SO LONG.
THERE IS BOOT CAMP TOMORROW. FML.
I WANT TO PAINT MY NAILS.

BUT ITS OKAY BECAUSE
I AM GOING TO HAVE BRITISH TAKEAWAY. (Y)
AND MOMMY GAVE ME 10 BUCKS FOR NOTHING.

GONNA CHECK OUT MY POLAROID LATER.
YAY BABY YAY.
NEXT SUNDAY IM GOING TO SUPPORT LB FOR S.F
*PROMISE*

OI YOU DIE ALR AH.
REPLY HALFWAY MIA. ASSHOLE HEARBREAKERZ.

Baby baby baby ohhhhhhhh.

Bestfriend. (L)
Ps: yah, thats my phone casing ^^

I've got a zillion pictures to upload.
Im so BZ.
Aunt's nagging as usual, but seriously, i dont care.
I would be the happiest if you could keep your mouth shut, tyvm.

Friday.
Went to school as per normal, except i had to carry this friggin big board, for Ian.


I did the board, prettaye as usual rightz? :>
During recess, prepared everything and sang him a birthday song as planned.


P.A ♥

And after recess, we passed Dahlia's card around and sang her a bday song during basics.


Happy girl. :-)

Friday night,
went for cgm @ riverwalk.
Learnt how not to whine to God. :/
Had dinner with cgms, and that was my only meal for the day.


♥

Satuday.
Woke up early in the morning to meet huimin to support the boysz.
We were damn early, so we ended up waiting and waiting and waiting.
Had british take away. (Y)
Yada yada yada.

Photos:
(MORE PICTURES ON FB)


My favourite series of pictures above. (Y)

Group photozzzz.


MRS OEI!!!!!!!!!

Screamed like mad, as usual. :>
First time supporting UTG in a competition without Joshua.
Lololol.
I am veli ploud of myselfz.

THEY GOT FIRST and we continued screaming. :>
Was supposed to meet Ade to head down to JP and support LB.
But there wasnt enough time. :(
Slacked at Just Acia anyway, yadayada.
Reached home @ 11 plus.
Veli early on a saturday.

Anyway, i havent shown you a picute of Lucius in my blog right!

HERE!! =) CUTE RIGHT.
I know.

you just dont understand whatever i am trying to say.

Un-beautiful.

Bestfriend.

Went to novena then vivo on sunday.
and as usual, J was being such an assssss. -.-
and and and,
Did i mention bumping into carmen, melissa and jolene on sunday?
Then carmen was so amazed that i am taller than her thanks to my wedges.
Kenna forced to take photo. HAHAHA.

Yah, then another photo which carmen and melissa were desperate for!


(L)

School has been so sleepy, but i guess its fine. :)
Im down for boot camp, so my first three days wont be a holiday for me and my classmatesz.
I skipped focus today because i didnt like the teacher.
Got abandoned by mrs lee and was sent to ms. ng and i didnt like it.
I hesitated and decided not to go in the end.
Headed home instead.
I-dont-feel-like-going-to-school. :(

Here's the bomb.

Tell me baby, if this aint hot, what is?

Im going thru arise and build and its going on smoothly. :)
I spent an average of <2$ per day. (Y)
Cant wait for four months later, when im finally free from debt.

MF.

Suntec conventional hall

My eyes are half open and I'm gonna shower soon after this post. Today was sucha a great day. I increased my building fund. So me is gonna save money now. I can really feel the heartpain. It also helps to slim down lah, I hope. Mock exam was sucha mood spoiler. And I had someone who replied me 5 lol in a row. Stupid idiot. I love pastor kong :D I love my cgms too. We all had so much to talk about. I don't wanna multiply. Okay I'm gonna bathe now. And boy aren't you dumb.

Oh and Leon said my face appeared on the screen during worship :$ omg. xsxs.

JB,oxox

I didn't see you today

And I'm missing you like mad.
Where are you, where are you?

Gonna mess with perfection and gotta get my ass out of the house to meet weiling and co.

J, I don't like you anymore and ya, I'm serious.
Today I got so turn offed by someone. Eeeyeeer.

4E4 mahhhh's classs.

Okay, so we were having this conference and we ended up changing our display name to our chinese name. :>
(Y)

Long as im where you're going to.

I cant eat, i cant sleep, whatelse could it be?

So...
I is a happy kid cause i passed my english, ive got a B4 \m/
I passed my F&N, maths and history as well. :>
On the other note, i failed my chinese, literature and physics. :<
Imma have tuition with WL and SYAFF. :-)

I am so sleepy i am gonna sleep early tonight!
Byebyebyebyebye. :)


yes they do love me. :P

and i do love you. :)

I miss your everything.

cause it felt like you were hugging me. Xo.

Today's literature paper almost killed me. Yes, literature.
I spent my day in school laughing at everything i see/hear.
I am so bored of school. I really am, but what can i do?
Im having my o levels this year. :<
I have boderline results which arent very appealing to me.
It gross me out.
Imma study hard. :>

I spent so much money this few days.
Have to save money from Arise and build alr. :>
Cant wait for my phone casing and my clothes i bought from c-osmetics.bs
tyvm ah tayweiwei.

Overdue pictures from chinese new year.


Tayweiwei.♥




I love this girls tonnnnnns.♥
you can never ever find anyone to replace anyone of them.
Luv you babies.

YAH AND ANYWAY,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUSTIN BIEBER!♥♥♥♥